Life, Parenthood, Work

I wonder, why.

Some news are deserved to be celebrated but apparently, for mine, low-keyed and on a hideous mode and on this verge on being made redundant.

Over the past few weeks, I read through tons of news on #womenintech #techstartup and coping with p_ _ _ _ _ _ _y within the start-up eco-system.

Hideous mode meant that I need to upkeep certain rules. Managing different schedules and etc.

I decided to halt certain plans and proceed with just doing the best for the job.

I realised this could be the one that kills, looking at various options and uncertainty but I looked at the upcoming one, this gonna be the apple of my eye, indeed.

Life, Reflections, Work

Burdened.

Be it finances, personal aspects and etc. I felt heavily burdened and yet, nothing could just “cut me some slack”.

Reflections on a year back, I took a pay cut from Public Sector and join a Fintech. However I left after a month stint after cultural differences and dramas within the organisation.

Despite the fact, many of my peers were shocked that I left an “iron rice bowl” for something non-conclusive with 3 children in the tow, with zero support from anyone (including the man). I admit, it’s indeed a steep learning curve that I excited to be part of when I got hired as the Employee #No.3 in Pioneering Bike-Sharing Local Team.

Looking back, Employee #No.1 and #No.2 had long left the company to pursue better worklife balance and I’m still within the zone of fast pace changes and haywired road maps with uncertainty within.

I was in a total regrets for turning down an opportunity due to a personal reason at another start up, curating in something I believed in.

Till date, I wished I could just say “Yes” on an impulse back then.

However I learnt;

“Sometimes God closes doors because its time to move forward. He knows you wont move unless your circumstances force You. Trust God, Always.”

And Year 2018 – I took another leap of faith to condone in something I deem crazy.

Hopefully, time will tell as this gonna be a make-it thing. I can’t afford to fail this.

Life, Rants, Reflections

Curated Paths

Sometimes I wished that someone can just curate the path for me. Growing up without a silver spoon, I am like the average grown-ups who needs to curate paths on my own.

This exercise flexibility but more stress along the way but again, saw this video and realized on how true it’s.

That level of network and reinvesting in myself, shall be something that I look forward to, as part of the goal in Year 2018.

Life, Reflections, Work

Wild Thoughts

Having Scentimental Singapore (SS) since Nov 2016 did help to empower a small group of single parents and earn keeps during the means. Being community-centric and focus placed an important role within today society. With that busy and hectic schedules over in my current role and etc, I didn’t place much focus on SS until recently when I struggled to overcome.

And not everyone can deal with a social enterprise who ain’t earning but still render assistance to the vulnerable. It will never be a regret but I learnt the power of love.

As part of yearning support from the group towards my progress of procrastination, healing from whatever I had been through.

I met up with a strong lady, June over lunch earlier today and she recommended me a book by Jennifer Heng, “Walking Out Of Secret Shame”. I finished the book over an afternoon and it was inspiring. It gave me courage, strength and wisdom to make me understand that I am not alone. Thank god for June, it made me realised that raising strong women is indeed important.

Being through all these made me think. I always had many fears:

  1. Financial Capability
  2. IF I were to switch my career, can I juggle between this and that. Or rather who will hire?
  3. The Marriage Woes

To be frank, I am thankful that through these times, I met a lot of kind souls. Perhaps, because the lack of empathy within my current place, my faith for people tends to be compromised.

I almost switched to another role but when I was about to make up my mind to go for it, I was being presented another challenging situation which I did tell my then potential employer. His response had sank within me so hard that I am thankful that I had met this young entrepreneur despite the situation. His encouraging words are something I will never forget and it did tie me through some form of healing.

This is the type of people I admired.

At the crossroads, with everything so bleak. My plans for Year 2018 – was initially planned to work with someone on something community-centric, with strong focus on the networks. I had just finished my Business Plan for the day.

But again, I thought of doing this alone freaks me out in my current situation.

I had a dream last night where I dreamt that I was touring the Divine Realms.

I was bought to 4 stages of it, where the first stage required me recite my Buddhist teaching. The 2nd stage shown me the quantity of Merits & Karma that I had enlightened thus far. The 3rd stage shown me all the phases of my current life from birth to death and the Last…

It shown me – The bad deeds I had done this lifetime and the karma in which I will be getting in my afterlife. This set me into deeper thoughts on what does this dream got to tell me. I need some lights on this. Enlightenment please?

On another note, I am really thankful for the close support and encouraging words from the people who sincerely care. I couldn’t been here without your support.

Thank you.

Life, Reflections

Coincidence

Just when I need a calling/ an enlightenment, I chanced upon this show on TV. And what is the most surprising thing is, when I googled the founder of TaoKaeNoi, Mr Aitthipat Kulapongvanich he was borned on 24 November 1984,  which meant, both of us are sharing the same birthday. I guess, never too late to start entrepreneurship. He took 2 years to repay a debt of $40 million. This is inspiring and a motivation for me.

Somehow or rather, I feel, both of us seems to have similar background story just that I don’t come from a wealthy family as per compared to him.

Well, at least our horoscope and character would be somehow similar. Would be glad to see him in person, if I get the chance.

In the meantime, I set my mind open about Entrepreneurship and updated my LinkedIn for exciting opportunities. 🙂

Time to throw my focus where the lack of time for SCENTIMENTAL SINGAPORE might miss my chance for something big.

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an eye-candy perhaps?

In the meantime, happy festive to everyone~