My Soul Mate, Matcha

Dear Matcha,

I just wish to pen this note to you as part of the memories in which you had bought me, the wonders of your life and the wonders of my life, with your presence.

I am sorry that I failed you at times, forgetting to get you your favourite treats, screamed at you for the wee-wee mess you made, not being there when the #ongsisters “forced” you to be part of the tea party in which you had never enjoyed (afterall, how does a dog drinks with paws?) and of course, the i-neglected-you-at-times moments.

But… I never treat you as a dog you know. You are like my best friend for life. My daughter, someone who I am hold dearly to and to be frank, you are that someone who knows my darkest secrets.

Words that had never been said. You heard it.

Thoughts that can never be translated. You heard it, too. Spirtually.

Things that were never meant to be seen. You saw it.

Thank you for being my comfort blanket during bedtime, when I am down, when I teared terribly, when I doubted myself, when I did my presentation rehearsals and many more.

Thank you for being there for me, always and unconditionally.

Thank you for that excited and positive vibes of yours whenever you saw me appearing at the door, no matter how late it is.

Thank you for being the kind sister to the #ongsisters and bring great memories and happiness to my family, friends and many more to come.

Indeed, dogs are man’s best friend. And you are my soul mate. My dear soul mate.

Thus I wish you good health, happiness and may we conquer many milestones together as a family. I will be proud of you, just like you how you will be proud of me.

One thing for sure, I doubt I will be able to handle your absence one day. I simply don’t think I can overcome that because you had been part of me.

I love you, my Matcha, forever my wonderful baby.

xoxo,

Your Beloved Hoomannnn Mummy.

P.S: I actually teared when I type this post.

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Roses are Red and…

Violets are blue.

Suddenly, came a small voice behind me that says, “Eh mama, ain’t violet, purple? It ain’t blue yo.”

That is my elder girl, Sharanne. Haha.

Sometimes parenting gives me another broader insights, that embrace love and makes one a greater person. Also, sometimes, kids say the darnest things. I listed two examples here:

Conversation about being a Chihuahua

Background: As a Chinese I believed in karma and reincarnations. And part of the religious teaching says that souls reborn as animals are due to past misdeeds (karma).  And so, I bought Matcha (my Chihuahua) back to my in-law to pray at the house temple to usher into the new year.

Me: Matcha, come over here and sit still. Pray if you can as it gives you merits if you cultivate the habit of listening to the  Buddha’s religious teaching, it will might make u a human again. You are a dog now due to your past misdeed.

Sharanne: Mama, no, Matcha might not be a dog because of the past misdeeds. She could be like you…

Me: Me?

Sharanne: Yes, she might have wish to become a Chihuahua like you did*. And because she attain merits and was a good girl then, the Genie granted her wish.

*Previously, I was stressed up at work till I casually spoke about being a Chihuahua like Matcha in my next lifetime, free from worries and get pampered like a Princess, ha~

Bottom line: Kids take YOUR words for real. Speak wise.

Conversation about One’s Inspirations

Me: What do you want to be when you grow up?

Sharanne: *Take deep breath* Dancer because I love dancing and I want to be real good in something I want to do.

Me: Ok, that’s good but still need to get a minimum education in order to survive yeah. *Sharanne nods and floats away from this dangerous topic.*

Andrealynn: I want to be a Doctor or Nurse, to help people and save lives.

Me: That’s good. I believe you can do it if you study hard and focus on your end goal.

Rayshirl: I want to be a Dog.

Me: Oh doc ah? That’s good.

Rayshirl: Nooooooo. Dog. A dog.

Me: Doc… Doctor? Good good.

Rayshirl: NO. I WANT TO  BE A DOG. Woof woof dog.

Me: …………. You can’t be a dog.

Rayshirl: But Matcha is a dog.

Me: …………………………………….

Andrealynn: Mama, if Rayshirl is a dog. I want to be a cat when I grow up.

Me: …………………………………………. *silence entered the darkest night*

ONE WEEK LATER,

Rayshirl: Mama, I realized I don’t want to be a dog anymore.

Me: Good… so what’s your new goal?

Rayshirl: I want to be a boy.

Me: …………………………… *speechless*

JUST LAST WEEK,

Rayshirl: Mama, I don’t want to be a boy also. I changed my mind.

Me: *wonder why she is so fickle minded but still* Ohhhh okay, so you are back to a  girl?

Rayshirl: No, I already know what I want to be.

Me: Ok… Now what?

Rayshirl: I want to be a Terrex.

Me: T-REX?

Rayshirl: No, TER-REX. Ah yi (aka her aunt aka my sister) says TERREX very powerful.

Me: But it’s a machine.

Rayshirl: Not a type of Dinosaur meh?

Me: NO. *shows her a picture of Terrex*

Rayshirl: No. This is not Terrex. Ahgong (aka my father aka her grandpa) shows me this before and it’s called a Tanker or Tank.

Me: …………………………………………………………

 

I guess, I will miss the girls when I relocate for work.